Care Package # 3

I can't believe it but we have now sent out a 3rd care package. That's how darn long this process is taking. I felt that Paige wouldn't have enough hot weather items, so I sent her a few short sets, onesie type outfits, skirt and top and another toy and a soft book so that she has more stimulation. I also sent a few of the items that she will be outgrowing soon because this is taking so much time.

Still no news. I keep on top of our agency each week. I just sent another email on Friday evening to our contact telling her that there is something not right about this judge not ruling.. It doesn't sit right with me that he has not ruled on any of the three families that got the misfortune to get him. If all our paperwork is a go then something is wrong with this asshole... sorry but it is my blog and this Taiwan judge is being an outright asshole at this point. I would only hope he would read this blog and those of the other waiting families to see the anguish he is causing each of us, for no apparent good reason. There must be something that can push him along... something. I feel that because the agency doesnt want to "push too much" that our babies are stuck in this limbo.... I say F......%$%$%$%tg....K that and push this guy.

Yes folks I am at my end... PAIGE SHOULD HAVE BEEN HOME ALREADY.... There are people who have referrals after us that have traveled and gotten their babies already. Why is it so darn easy for some people and soooo not so easy for us..We have had a failed referral and now this??? Whew it always feels better after I get that off of my chest for a few hours at least.

For Paige

Since this is a sort of history log for our daughter to have one day, I wanted to let her know how hard this wait is for us. So this is written for her:

Paige,
You look so happy in your update pictures. We have now known who you are since December. You are 6 months old, and by the looks of your video are getting ready to crawl or walk and use your legs. I really thought that I would be holding you in my arms by now since it is June... The reality of it is that I just don't know when you will be home. I am not even sure you will be home with us in the summer. I just hope that you know that we love you, and talk about you every day. We sometimes will go and sit in your room which is all ready for you and just think about you. We hope that you won't look back and think that we didn't try everything we could to get you home with us. It is truly a hopeless feeling when you want something (you Paige) so much, and can't get it because of things beyond your control. This wait has made me learn the true meaning of patience. We love you little Paige Min Shan.

MOMMY and Daddy

I won!!

How fun it is to win something. I enter a few different giveaways from time to time that various bloggers hold on their blogs. So today I got an email that I won!!! I never win anything. I won a pinafore and a matching pair of bloomers for Paige. So cute. Paige will look adorable in these. This is the blog that I won them from. She does have cute things on here.
http://threeyellowstarfish.blogspot.com

6 months Old already

Paige is 6 months old today. I have to tell ya I didnt think that she would still be in Taiwan on her 6 mnth birthday. She was only 2 weeks at referral. How can this be? We are frustrated, angry, sad... There is nothing we can do. We have asked to switch judges, we have talked to our agency about all different senarios. It comes down to one thing. THE JUDGE. I was told that some of the judges there don't think adoption is a priorty and if they have other cases then oh well....your adoption case goes to the bottom. So we wait. I know she looks happy and hope that when we finally do get to go get her that it won't be too difficult for her to leave her foster parents. I wish that I knew someone who worked in the courts in Taichung so that I could get more information. This is the most frustrating of all that we don't get any information.

I was showered again.

Can you believe I was surprised again... no clue.... my friends and husband are getting way too good at keeping things from me. I received an invite to a "Bag Party" at one of my good friend's house. Of course I can't resist a great bag party, and with my husband telling me I have to go because my friend Laura is always there for me...even though Coleton had a baseball game. So there I was ready with check in hand with a clear idea of what I would be buying, knocking on Laura's door, to not shopping but to a great big Surprise.. Yes it was another baby shower. This one from my dear friends at work. I am so humbled and grateful for all their good wishes... We recieved beautiful, and practicial gifts for Fairy Paige. Oh Paige if you only knew how much you are already loved and how excited everyone is to meet you. Thank you my dear friends!!!!

And here are some pictures from my first shower with family and friends.

UPDATE TIME

Our little Paige is changing so much. These pictures were taken on April 30, 2009 and she would have been just a little over 5 months. Her weight at this time was 12.8 pounds and 22.8 inches. She looks so much bigger in her picture than she really is. Yeaaahhh she is finally wearing an outfit we sent her but no hair bow bands... Paige looks healthy and happy and look at her video how strong she is .. I so hope we get to bring her home soon.... Our agency told us to be patient today, that the judge has a lot of cases... are ya kidding me????????? So enjoy looking at her beautiful, happy face.

The sun was shining..but there was still a shower

Wow what a weekend!!! Friday evening I had plans to walk with my friend Michelle as we usually do several times per week. I had taken Coleton to Lacrosse practice, and came home to change into my walking apparel- which I will preface with- IS NOT PRETTY. Picture this.... I was walking to my friend's house to meet her...so picture this....me- walking with my hair up- in my ugly workout/walking clothes- no makeup reapplication since probably 6:30 am- walking it like I really mean it..
and then there in my friend's driveway.. 30 beautifully dressed women screaming SURPRISE.

I have never been surprised like this my entire life... it was weird but in a glorious way. My family and my friends were all there to celebrate Paige Min Shan, and it was an unforgettable and totally awesome moment.

THIS WAS OUR BABY SHOWER FOR PAIGE. I had shower for Kyle.... 19 years ago....and now here I was...at my age...being honored for our baby that we hope to bring home SOOOOOOOON. I will never forget this, and was deeply touched by it all.

So many people helped to make this the best baby shower I have ever been to( yes, because it was for me) ..the food was glorious (Chinese from our favorite restaurant), perfect decorations (pink, green and tinkerbell all inclusive), the company of friends and family.

Opening the presents was so much fun!! I can't even tell you all the beautiful gifts that were bestowed on us for Fairy Princess Paige... in fact it was like having a lot of fairy godmothers... ooohhh the gifts were so beautiful. I will post some of them during this week..
Thank you all again... especially Jo and Michelle for organizing it all. Paige doesn't know how much she is loved here...
I don't have any of the pictures yet so go here to see some at Jo's blog.

It's raining...it's pouring

It's been raining here most of the weekend. We managed to get in one baseball game yesterday, and a lacrosse game today, but another baseball game and a practice were cancelled. We also went to see the new X***m*n movie. It was pretty good although someone had a child well under the age of 4 there, and the movie was way too violent for someone that young.

I spoke to my friend Jules yesterday who just returned home with her beautiful daughter Hayden, from Taiwan. You can visit her by clicking on my sidebar for (Pink Velvet Baby). I felt so much better after speaking to her yesterday... it made it so much more real for me and I am so happy for Jules and her family. Jules also reminded me that I better start moving my butt on a few things now instead of waiting. I am so last minute, and so not a list maker. I will definately start now though.. I have to get all my gifts together that I will be taking to Taiwan for the agency, the birthmother, the foster family. I still have to purchase many of these things. I also want to make a book of all of Paiges pictures that I have received for her birthmother to have, so I really need to start that.

Hopefully this week will bring her first ruling. Please, please, please, have first ruling news this week.