Some day I will write a book about adoption. This has been one big rollercoaster, that I really want to get off of. I am sick at heart as I write this. Our beautiful HsinJung is no longer going to be our daughter. Her birthmom decided to parent her. No further explanation. I am not mad at her, just very sad that she will not be our daughter. I dont know how to go on from here, but I will. We have suffered from 5 miscarriages, a slow down in China, a bad domestic adoption experience, and now a failed Taiwan adoption. We will go on.
Ok so to look at the bright side, we will get another referral. Just not sure how soon. I want to look forward to our daughter that will be, We will know that she was meant for us... So stay tuned and if you get sick from the rise and fall of the rollercoaster, then you need to get off ...
22 comments:
Oh Lisa, I am so, so sorry! We will keep you in our prayers. We will also pray for a new referral. Your little girl is out there!!
Oh no...I'm so so very sorry. You and your family, as well as baby girl will be in my prayers.
Lisa,
My thoughts & prayers are with you all during this difficult time. It IS very much like the roller coaster you described & much more physically & emotionally demanding than most would suspect.
The grace & courage you are displaying are remarkable....your miracle girl is still waiting for your loving arms!
If you need anything, please let me know.
Hugs,
Lisa C.
Lisa, all my thoughts and prayers are with you tonight. My heart is broken for you. Sarah
My heart is just aching for you tonight Lisa. Please keep your head up and know that your daughter IS out there. I will keep you in my prayers each night.
Casey
Our thoughts & prayers are with you and your family.
Oh honey... I am so sorry! We have been through one failed adoption and lots of stuff this time so I know this is more than hard for you. You sound so brave and I am so proud of you. We will pray for you to find your beautiful daughter sooner than you know it. And that God will give you peace and strength....
Hang in there!!
Sarah k
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Lisa
I am so very sorry that you are going through this! My heart breaks for you. Please know that you are in my thoughts and in my prayers.
with love and hugs,
Jenn
My heart breaks for you right now. I know the wait has been long but keep holding on...your special little girl is waiting to add even more joy to your amazing and patient family. I will say a prayer for you and for a fast referral!!!
My heart feels so heavy, my thoughts have been with you ~ I wish there was more I could do. You are a brave and special person and your girl will be so lucky to have you for her mother. Stay strong, as you are ~ you deserve the very best :)
Lisa, I am so sorry. I cannot imagine the pain and sadness you are all going through right now but know you are in my thoughts.
I am so so sorry! You don't deserve to have to go through so much to bring your daughter home! My thoughts are with you...and I am sending BIG virtual hugs your way!!!
OMG Lisa, I am so sorry !!! You and your family will be in my prayers. !!
Lisa, my heart aches for you. I am sure there are no words right now that will help, just time. Stay strong, and as you mentioned, look forward to your next referral and that it will be for the baby that is meant to come home with you. My thoughts and prayers, love trish
You are in our thoughts and prayers. My heart aches for you and your family.
Lisa, I am so sorry you are having to go through this. My heart sank when I read the JOH board this morning. Hopefully there will be a nice batch of referrals this month. Not that it makes up for your loss but it sure will make things easier.
Email me if you want to talk at all.
Oh Lisa - There are no words that I can express how sorry I feel for you and your family. Keep the Faith!! There is a baby girl out there that GOD has marked are yours and she is waiting for you. Our thoughts and prayers are with you
Lisa,
I am heart-broken for you and your family. I can't imagine your pain and disappointment. You are in my prayers.
I believe that the adoption process needs to be improved greatly. It seems great strides are taken in protecting the feelings and rights of the birth-mothers and the children (and that is great! It seems they are doing a decent job of that). But, in adoption, the adoptive parents are the ones left out to dry so many times. It is their feelings and needs that get overlooked. Adoptive parents need to be protected in this process too (they are human beings also). And, so many adoptive parents have had countless hurts and losses prior to pursuing adoption. Yet, the message from the adoption world seems to be "Be tough and suck it up." That's just not good enough. I'm so sorry for your loss.
I hope you find your baby daughter very soon! I'm praying for you.
Oh Lisa - I am so very sorry. I can't even imagine how you are doing.. and I wish there were something to say or do to ease this pain...
You know you have friends in all sorts of places... and we will send you our best thoughts and a prayer that this roller coaster ends soon and happily.
Missy
Lisa, My heart aches for you. Your family is in my thoughts and prayers.
Oh Lisa I am so sorry!!! I will keep you guys in my prayers! Your hearts must be broken, but I know your baby girl is out there! I wish I would have checked in sooner so that I would have known.
Love and prayers.
Donna
I am so sad for you Lisa - you have so much love to give...if you feel in your heart that you want to continue the ride it will all work out.
Sending hugs to all of you,
Adeline
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